Today’s my birthday! I feel like it’s almost customary to write a introspective post of reflection and wisdom when one turns another year older, or at the least compile a list of things one would like to achieve. I have to be honest – I’ve always had a strong sense of self, and whilst I’ve certainly grown and developed through my life (spoiler: that’s the point) I don’t feel a million miles away from the person I was a year ago, or five years ago, or ten years ago.
Last year was my first birthday following Pete’s death, and one of the other little crutches of my personal triumvirate (James) was away for the week, so things just felt at an absolute low. I’ve just racked the archives of this blog and I didn’t even acknowledge my birthday in the posts around that time which I think is quite telling. The previous year Pete gets a full mention despite my blog being in it’s infancy at the time and friends never made much of an appearance. It’s quite odd re-reading this post, I still feel connected to the excitement and joy I expressed for my birthday but it’s also quite poignant reading about my feelings towards my friends.
Without trying to get too philosophical or deep, I have kind of mixed feelings towards this birthday – for one thing, this is the closest to 30 I’ve ever been and secondly my job and life situations don’t appear to have really advanced much in the last couple of years. Perhaps that’s to be expected? I’ll be celebrating tomorrow – on Friday I have a gig followed by birthday drinks at The Others in Stoke Newington. I love performing, it’s a wicked venue and the line-up is super-varied and interesting – so come down if you want to join in and celebrate with me. Yay! Xx